Fellatia G’s 34 Rules of Engagement
The queen of ahegao face and interior design
In a world where creativity and innovation are often stifled by societal norms and expectations, Fellatia G stands out as a bold and unapologetic artist.
With a unique blend of rap and game development, she has carved a path for herself that defies categorization and challenges conventional thinking.
Allowing her impulsive nature to take over, her music is raw and unfiltered—a reflection of her deep-seated sense of alienation and impending doom. With a unique blend of rap and game development, she has carved a path for herself that defies categorization and challenges conventional thinking.
Similarly, her games—a twisted collage of gore and porn—are a reflection of her personal journey of overcoming the trauma she faced while consuming media as a child, resulting in a provocative commentary on the confusing and traumatizing effects of media on young minds.
Fellatia G's work is a testament to the fact that true art has no boundaries and can be created in any form, and we can't wait to see what she has in store for us next!
"Fellatia G" is your stage name. After years and years of career as an independent artist behind you, are you still comfortable with your moniker? Or are there any plans to change it in the near future?
I’ve gone by multiple variations of “Fellatia G” since I was 15 years old, changing it a few times. I feel like I really have developed a signature style. I might change my name if I wanted to go totally anonymous, which is something I’m seriously considering. The internet has become increasingly hostile towards artists, it seems like even the smallest of content creators will get doxxed and harassed once they gain any amount of traction. There is a contradiction in my desires where I want it to be known that I’ve been rapping for over a decade/ wanting no one to have access to or be aware of anything I made prior to 2018. People will still get mad at you for shit you did when you were LITERALLY a neurodivergent minor like it’s something you’re still doing today, that you must constantly apologize for and be punished for in perpetuity, and TBH I’d rather avoid dealing with it as much as possible. I think it’s hard for people who do not rap/aren’t creators to understand the spontaneity and impulsivity that comes with something like freestyling, or writing a verse on the fly/for fun. When I was younger, I did not care what people thought of me at all, almost to a detriment. I also didn’t discern whether a song I recorded should be shared publicly online or privately in person; everything I made I would impulsively upload. One thing that really shocks me is I see a few people online who still remember lyrics from music I released on MySpace when I was 15 years old, which is horrifying. I love releasing music and art, but there is the fear of inspiring a harassment campaign by simply existing as an artist online and garnering even a small little amount of success that will turn you into a target. This anxiety kept me from releasing this album for like a year. I was working on trying to make $ in a more viable way instead. Where I felt like I should keep my head down to avoid ruining my own life; then my latent suicidal ideation, which faded into the background, came to the forefront; and I realize that simply working to make money to survive basically put me in a mindset where I no longer cared if I lived or died because I was so miserable, pursuing my passion was the only option & it would be worth being murdered by a stalker (second worst case scenario) to pursue my passion (actual worst case scenario: living a life abject poverty because no one will hire you because you were relentlessly smeared online for being something you truly are not, and you also couldn’t make enough $ from your weird ass art to survive, and you’ve been ostracized from all community/society, so you KYS in obscurity). Most likely, if I am in a situation where I become a semi-public-figure and I cannot deal with it, I will start creating behind an anonymous V-Tuber identity.
What is the relationship between the current and past eras of your work? Do you feel like you have outgrown bodies of work like “Nightmare Temptation Academy”, or is there a stable connection with what “Fellatia G” will be about in your forthcoming projects?
Bring it down; bring it all down
I don’t think I’ve totally outgrown Nightmare Temptation Academy yet, as I am still proud of it. It took me 2 years to make and it’s only been out for 2 years! Not enough time has passed to hate it, that usually happens for me around the 4-year mark. There is still a stable connection to this work, in that the soundtrack I created for NTA was performed by Fellatia G; and I feel like my delivery & flow have reached the point where it has a distinct signature style, that is very much present in my upcoming project, which is a standalone album (with accompanying music videos), Fellatia Nation (Releasing on 4/20!). Many of the themes in NTA are still present in this album, but I think Fellatia Nation is way more fun, and way less depressive. In Fellatia Nation I did not have to think about working each song into a larger narrative, I was just able to think of them as stand-alone songs. Fellatia Nation is more fun, sexual, boss-bitchy, and overtly political. I definitely think I took my lyricism to the next level, I like every song on it. It was extremely fun to make Fellatia Nation, focusing on just rapping brings me so much joy during the process, whereas game development feels like a total drag. I am also still working with the same producer who made the most of the instrumentals on NTA and engineered the album, Moon Bounce, so there is a somewhat coherent sound emerging, even though I am constantly having ideas for songs that are across genres.
In the second game I made, Viral (2015), there is a lot about it that I’m still proud of, I think it has really unique gameplay and is still quite funny at times. Mostly it concerns me because it has many extremely edgelord moments, and I was going through a reactionary phase when I made this game. I tried to address this with a newly updated hyper-specific trigger warning to help limit the audience.
I do feel like I’ve outgrown the first game I released in 2014- Fuck Everything. When I replayed it, the worldview I was trying to cryptically convey felt very naive and cringe to me now. I hate that I described that game as a critique when I was more so just fucking around/wanted to make a really bizarre dating sim.
Basically creating all these games was a way for me to work through a media-induced haze, confusion, and trauma. Ever since I started using the Internet (playing Neopets, when I was like 9) I was also exposing myself to extreme pornography and other really heinous shock content; no one showed it to me, I encountered it just by using the internet and exploring forums and search engines. So the aesthetic of my games is inspired by my childhood games that are targeted at young girls (Neopets, Bratz, etc.) mixed with a distorted collage of gore and porn because this is really how chaotic and decontextualized my experience consuming media as a child was. I think it fucked up my brain a bit, like real damage.
Fellatia Nation feels like something I made in the present/future, rather than something that has been in the past (with the exception of 2 songs that explicitly reflect on the past, it is a 10-track album).
Any music I made before 2018 I’ve totally outgrown, while some of it I can still kind of vibe with, most of it I am totally embarrassed by and I took down. I am proud that I’ve been rapping for such a long time though, I realized I just really love to do and I have always done it as an obsessive hobby, I’m no longer attached to the outcome of if I have successful music career with or not. I do it because I love to and it brings me joy, I don’t see myself ever quitting. Game dev, however, was something I already declared that I quit after NTA, but now I have some new game ideas, so actually I didn’t quit, I just needed a break.
Lurker or stalker?
Genre-wise, your music catalog is weaving together a rich tapestry of songs that range from electroclash, pop-punk, and trip-hop to lo-fi and cloud rap. Are you considering exploring any new genres for your upcoming records?
My upcoming album Fellatia Nation is definitely exploring a wide range of genres, at first, I was worried it didn’t go together at all, but it is thematically very coherent, and all the beats were made by the same producer (Moon Bounce), so they do all have a similar thread’ Fellatia G is not bound by any genre!
The album is 10 tracks long and I’d say the genre ranges from horrorcore, trip-hop, downtempo, electroclash, bounce, dark-pop, deep house, electro-swing/musical theater jazz vibe. It’s made cohesive by my lyrics, delivery & my bars. In the right track order, the genre shifts make sense to ME (I’ve decided that I am the only audience I’m concerned with, and the audience that naturally emerges is my people).
Speaking of your current music catalog, most of your work sounds rather impulsive and, therefore, authentic to me, and I do believe that your creations are exceptionally captivating, educational, and disturbing all at once. What’s the ultimate message (or the messages) you want to deliver?
Yes, impulsive is definitely how everything is made; not so much consideration & thinking beforehand,
I usually have to justify and investigate my reasons for making something after it is finished.
I think that I am managing a sense of impending doom, and I am investigating why I always felt so alienated and like something was wrong with me; while also realizing that there are other people like me who feel the same way and have had a similar frame of reference/experience that will relate to the work. There is definitely not a straightforward message, every song is different. I am also having fun, like A LOT of fun when I rap, it's’ the only thing I enjoy doing.
You’ve collaborated with underground artists such as Popgoth, Vze, and Baby Sp!t. Would you like to tell us a bit more about making bangers with them?
They reached out to me on Twitter after we had been following each other for a while. They sent me open verses for songs that wanted me on and I loved the vibe. The energy of the songs they sent me to feature on naturally resonated with me. Mileena & Satana were the perfect characters for me to embody to channel my dark Lilith energy and siren-Maxx, which is my favorite vibe to bring to a track. Unfortunately, it was just over the internet & I have not had the chance to create with them in person, but I would love to do that one day as well. I love connecting with artists I vibe with online, especially after years of being internet friends. There is something very cosmic/destiny/vibey about making friends online that I love. They are awesome, and everyone reading this should check out their music if you haven’t already.
Her plans are all coming together
Speaking of dream collaborations with other musicians, is there anyone else you'd go to any lengths to work with?
There is definitely more than this, but off the top of my head: Melissa Marie Green of the Millionaires, CupcakKe, BbyMutha, ppcocaine, Dorian Electra, Peaches, Zack Fox, Eminem, Backxwash, Doja Cat, Mori Calliope, The Stupendium
Not only are you a talented rapper and performer, but you’re also a game developer. Your album “Nightmare Temptation Academy” is a videogame as well, and each track is closely linked to its levels. What inspired your journey to become a game developer?
I have always wanted to make games, ever since I was a child I was on sites like Newgrounds and Albino Black Sheep, which were all flash games and animations made by DIY artists. They were really bizarre and shitty looking because they were usually made by just a solo artist in the very beginning stages of their career. I especially loved the porn/hentai games on Newgrounds; and that’s really really what I wanted to make, my own dating sim. When I was an undergrad I finally had the opportunity to take a web development class where I learned how to build websites, so I created my first game, Fuck Everything, as a playable website with the basic HTML/CSS/JS that I learned in that class. I basically made a game at the first opportunity I had once I acquired the skills to make my art interactive. Before that, I was just making digital illustrations in Photoshop. I was really into making erotic fan art of my favorite anime characters, and also original characters & comics at the time. I mean I guess technically I made my first choose-your-own-adventure game when I was 9 on Neopets; they had a game called Neopian Adventure Generator, which was a little tool you could use to make your own text choose-your-own-adventure game. So yea, just growing up with these sorts of websites as games, really encouraged their players to be creative and create their own art on their platforms.
I’ve read on Twitter you’re currently working on a new game. Would you like to give us any spoilers?
Booting up
“I always wanted to make games and rap, for as long as I can remember.”
I haven’t started working on a new game yet, but I have a few ideas & I will be making more games in the future. After making Nightmare Temptation Academy I was so burnt out I was basically telling people I was done with making games, because it was grueling thankless work, and I felt like it was kind of stealing years of my life from me (couldn’t hang out with friends or relax as much as other people because of how time-consuming it was to make, I was burnt out by the time I finished making it).
One idea I have - I recently found one of my old binders filled with drawings I made in my childhood. One of the binders had sketches for an off-brand Pokemon game that I called Neonmon, which I made throughout 7th grade instead of paying attention in class. I thought it would be funny to scan my childhood sketches and actually turn them into the game that I was imagining as a kid. I really like the idea of fulfilling my childhood fantasies and staying true to my inner child- like I always wanted to make games and rap, for as long as I can remember. I also like the idea of never leaving a project unfinished.
I would also like to make a game that isn’t pornographic or excessively gory, and also doesn’t remix & collage characters/media from other known sources (deliberately), so that I could ship the game to actual platforms, and reach a wider audience! I also think certain game festivals will be more receptive to it as well. This will be a big creative challenge for me, I am hoping to be able to do this and still stay true to myself as an artist. So I haven’t landed on just one idea yet.
I know that you were obsessed with anime at the age of 15 in high school. What was the first show that got you into the anime world? And which shows have had a significant impact on your music?
Before that when I was really little I was watching very mainstream Sailor Moon, and Pokemon, & reading the Tokyo Mew Mew Manga, but I was not fully obsessed with anime yet. It was actually a bit before high school when I was about 11/12 when I started getting really into anime; the first shows that I was truly obsessed with were Full Metal Alchemist, FLCL, Paranoia Agent, Fruits Basket, and Eureka Seven. I actually got pretty into Japanese rap when I was that age through Eureka Seven, they had HALCALI & Home Made Kazuko doing the opening music to their anime and I loved those songs, and started listening to their discographies. Being into anime (before it was cool) led me into some strange corners of the internet, which more so impacted the content I would rap about; not so much the sound of my music. Like I feel there was a pipeline, from being addicted to Neopets as a child to discovering anime to discovering Gaia Online to discovering 4Chan. I think about how I was like 10/11 years old, absolutely captivated by hardcore hentai and scouring 4Chan boards for the most bizarre and violent images you could find as a sort of game in itself; and what that must have done to my brain. Also that this is a cultural phenomenon, in that a lot of people who are close to my age range share this experience. That’s something that comes up in my body of work a lot; balancing this early 2000s cutesy childhood nostalgia with a decontextualizing of the horrific & abject in a way where they coexist in the same space.
Now that we’ve just talked about your first anime, let’s dive a little into your musical firsts! What is the first song you’ve ever made? And what’s the first one you’ve released officially?
The first song I ever recorded was called Elmer’s Glue, & I released it on MySpace music; I don’t know if that counts as an official release though, lol! Yea I think I was like 14 or 15 years old, and the song was wildly inappropriate, the chorus went “I was like snorting coke off his dick, snorting coke off his dick” and it repeats a bunch of times. I basically just thought it was hilarious, which was why I made the song. It definitely had an electroclash sound to it.
I feel like when I started recording music I was most inspired by The Millionaires, they had a huge presence on scene MySpace. But up until that point, I was listening to a lot of 90’s hip hop, like The Pharcyde, Salt N Pepa, and Lil Kim, who were definitely my favorites at the time. But of course, I was also really into Lil Wayne & Nicki Minaj when they first started getting radio play. Also Kesha. And through the video game Jet Set Radio future I discovered Cibo Matto because of their song Birthday Cake; I got very into them; Then when I was even younger my mom was really into the album Becoming X by the Sneaker Pimps; A few of my songs have this downtempo trip-hop vibe, with a femme vocal that is a rap that’s a bit hip hop but also a bit punk. I feel like I fused different elements of these sounds into my own style; being super lyrical and giving you BARS, while also sounding like a trashy bratty dumb valley girl.
Cry me a rivulet
I know that you’ve been recognized by Anthony Fantano for your talents—he reviewed your mixtape a few years ago. That’s a marvelous milestone! Being noticed, listened to and recognized by a high-caliber critic and expert like him is something that we independent artists all hope for at least once in our lives. How do you feel about it?
It was super awesome, and it’s honestly where most of the following I’ve retained today comes from! Fantao truly has savant levels of internet music knowledge to be aware of artists as obscure as me. He usually retweets my releases, so I am hoping he thinks my next album is review worthy, I’m sure he will at least give it a listen! I have so much respect & love for people who use their platform to support smaller artists, specifically if that artist is me. He is far more receptive to giving unknown artists a chance than ANY music outlet (it’s crickets when I send out a press release), and he is known for breaking small artists to a larger audience, which is very good & iconic praxis to me - which is why idc if he makes people mad or if I disagree with one of his reviews, he is forever the GOAT to me, 10/10!
These are hard times for us musicians who cannot solely rely on income from streaming, and that’s one of the reasons why subscription models—like Patreon—hold exciting possibilities for many of us. You have a Patreon, don’t you? Without digressing too much, what kind of services are you offering to your subscribers?
Hell yea! I am actually loving Patreon right now, I wish I started one sooner. I am posting early snippets and releases of my upcoming songs, videos, and album art. Also, a lot of fans keep asking me where my old music went when I took down my old music & videos, so I am taking requests & posting my old music that is high in demand, and also providing insight about why I removed the songs from the public. The hidden easter eggs & hentai scenes from my games. A behind-the-scenes look at my thought process; a chance to workshop my trigger warnings and bios with me. I am also posting lewd pics, and I’m planning to draw a collection of fan art hentai of myself with various characters to go along with the release of the first single off my album - Rule 34. Really anything I think people who support my work would be interested in! I’m also responding to all messages on Patreon- it’s really hard for me to keep up with DM’s on Twitter and IG, it has gotten too chaotic and out of hand at this point, since Patreon is fewer people, it’s much easier for me to make sure I respond.
With the advance of blockchain technology and non-fungible tokens, possibilities to earn income seem to have increased for us creators. What’s your stance on NFTs? Have you ever thought about making one?
I feel like I don’t have a stance on them. I’ve seen my artist friends who were struggling financially make good money off of them and that’s awesome to me and something I can only encourage/be happy for them. I want all my starving artists to get the bag. I am also aware of the predatory/pyramid-scheme-y aspects & the environmental damage that they cause. I had a weird moment on Twitter where half my feed was people making NFTs, & the other half was people condemning NFTs & saying they would stop supporting any artist that made NFTs. It felt so polarizing & simultaneously dumb, that I pretty much have no interest in making them. I feel like I would need a bigger platform/audience to actually have anyone interested in buying them anyway. It also feels like it’s something that died & is harder to make money off of & considered cringe now.
Feed the beast, don’t run away
A tough question for you... What’s the piece of work you’re most proud of? And why?
Definitely my upcoming album, Fellatia Nation! I feel like I took it to the next level with the lyrics, the music videos, AND the production (prod. Moon Bounce). I cannot wait to release it, I feel like I am living for the release. A close 2nd would be Nightmare Temptation Academy, I can’t believe how much content I made for it; the game usually takes 3 hours for people to play until the end! It was also the first time I feel like the music production was up to par and set a standard for myself going forward.
This one is maybe a little easier... How and how much has your musical taste changed until today?
My tastes have not really changed at all. I am still very nostalgic for everything I used to like, but my tastes have expanded as I keep discovering new artists.
I think my tastes have mostly changed in terms of the quality & content of songs I consider acceptable to release to the public as Fellatia G. Over the past decade I have carelessly made public (even if only briefly) probably close to 100 songs and I really regret not doing some quality control. Why was I posting unmixed demos online? I leave a lot more things in the drafts now. I also won’t collaborate with just anyone who asks me to & I won’t sell features to randoms anymore.
Last one... Not exactly a question. Make me a playlist of 10 tunes you're obsessed with right now!
Ok! Here’s a link I made to it, more than 10 songs though!
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